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Got exhausted???
It’s been quite a long journey of meditation, thinking about stopping my study now to start a new one which I really like, music stuff. I was terribly sick of this all. I hate the circumstances in my campus, the study environment. All I find so far was only selfishness. I just couldn’t imagine of how to survive here with such egoism dominating the society. I nearly wanted to quit yesterday. However, my best friend in campus keep encouraging me to go through with this all. The thought I’m relying on is ‘not by might, not by power, but by My Spirit, says the Lord."
Keep fighting!!!

I’m sick of this all!!! I was once longing for the true friendship and
I thought I’ve got it. Surely, it overflows me till now. However, guess
what, it was destructed all of sudden!!! It was just gone!!! I became a
hopeless man, desiring only to give up this life. I don’t know what to
do anymore. I’ve tried my best to keep the friendship as it was begun 7
months ago. All has changed. All changed!!! Noone can ever deny it!!
All has changed!!! In fact, it’s still changing now!!!!
The
day after I confessed what I felt to him as clear as I could, the
friendship was broken. He hated me fully, wholly. Of what reason??? It
was because I kicked a cat while it was eating something which I
thought not a food. But it was done that time!!! I couldn’t go back to
the past and repair this stuff.
Amazingly, he changed his mind,
seeing my hopelessness. He decided to forgive me, which, I don’t know
whether it was a complete forgiveness or just a part of the complete
forgiveness. As a matter of fact, despite my willingness to have all
back to the first step, as we were once building this friendship, he
had changed. He didn’t care anymore of what I’m facing, of what
happened to me, what I was struggling, what I feel, and many more…
While, I’m still watching over him, caring his regular life and all his
activities, his work, his readiness to face the exam, his meal, his
feeling most importantly, his mood as always, and so on.
I don’t
know why he changed this far while we had made an agreement that we
would start again from the beginning like we started this friendship 7
months ago. He was just…. I don’t know… What happened to him
actually??? Does he have a problem right now???
One thing I learned
from this situation is that friendship is such an agreement between two
sides with both sides agreeing one thing, that is to walk together and
lift the other up when they’re down or praising him when he get
success. A friend walk right beside his friend, not behind or in front
of him. I hope we could be back to the old days… to the happy days of
knowing that friendship does mean something to both of us. There were
so many trauma in my life about friendship and I hope this wouldn’t be
the next trauma. I can change to be better…

Friendship—

It’s a bit like a therapy for me to undergo such a situation in which I learn not to rely on anybody but one in everything. I tried hard so far to face all things alone. I used to ask for much help from those around me. I realized then that this may be quite a wrong choice of my decision.
One thing I like so far is that I’ve underwent such a situation where I don’t regret what has been done and what has happened. I like this last six months. I have a friend, the closest one I’ve ever had. He’d been the one changing my personality so much. However, not all things go as I thought before. He’s going somewhere now, this time. I’ve been waiting for nearly a month for him to come back home. Nevertheless, it seems useless. He kept saying that all things are OK which, in fact, everything is not OK. He, the one I know since the first, has changed up side down.
But, so far, I’m happy to have undergone such an experience. I will never forget it. It’s been my prayer for a period of time, since long time ago, to have a friend who can be my best one, who I thought he would think the same as me. Since I knew the truth, I got depressed and now I tried hard to keep struggling while in fact it keeps "menghantui" me. Knowing all things have been done, I can’t do anything to change everything. It’s a life. Life keeps going on no matter whether I’m ready or not to face it. I just want to warn you all to be aware of relying on someone, making such a relationship. It could build you up and in the same manner it could break you down…

Entrepeneurship

Pembicara : Buntoro

Entrepeneur merupakan persiapan (suatu cita-cita yang
dipersiapkan) untuk masa depan dan mengeksekusi pada waktunya yang benar serta
tepat.

Pada umumnya entrepeneur dibagi tiga, yakni:

Entrepeneur cita-cita: persiapannya selalu dikerjakan /
memiliki persiapan yang matang

Entrepeneur
oportunis: entrepeneur yang menunggu peluang tiba, bukan berinisiatif mencoba

Real
entrepeneur: entrepeneur yang mampu memandang masa depan dan mengeksekusinya

Adapun
fokus seorang entrepeneur bukanlah pada pemasukan berupa uangnya yang
diperhatikan, melainkan hal-hal baik (the
good) yang dapat dirasakan oleh sekitarnya secara nyata. Karena itulah, modal seorang entrepeneur hanyalah dirinya sendiri dengan
mulai dari ‘penjualan’ dirinya terlebih dahulu.

Pengusaha Berbasis IPTEK

Secara mendasar, setiap bisnis berbasis pengetahuan:

Ilmu
Pengetahuan (knowledge) à teknologi (technology) à industri (industry) à Business à
ilmu pengetahuan

Dengan adanya modal ilmu pengetahuan maka dapat
diciptakan teknologi yang terus mengalami perkembangan dengan teknologi itu
sendiri merupakan penggunaan praktis dari suatu pengetahuan. Kemudian teknologi
tersebut ditransformasikan menjadi suatu industri besar yang pada kelanjutannya
sudah menjadi suatu bisnis tersendiri lagi. Pada akhirnya dasar bisnis tersebut
akan menjadi landasan ilmu pengetahuannya yang lebih maju lagi.

Dalam praktiknya, entrepeneur sangat berbeda dengan
manajemen. Entrepeneur tidak membutuhkan manajemen untuk kelangsungan kegiatannya,
ataupun manajer, sampai dengan ia mulai tidak bisa menangani semua urusannya
tersebut lagi. Di lain sisi, manajemen berperan sebagai ilmu untuk menolong
entrepeneur.

Keberhasilan seorang entrepeneur diukur dari
parameternya, yakni prestasinya berupa karya-karya yang sudah dihasilkannya.
Dalam hal ini dibutuhkan konsistensi dari entrepeneur itu sendiri.

Jika dilihat dari pola kerjanya, entrepeneur tampak
bersifat kapitalis sedangkan entrepeneur sendiri memiliki peran yang sangat
penting di masyarakat, yaitu menciptakan lapangan kerja, membangun masyarakat,
daerah, dan lain-lain. Pada dasarnya, entrepeneur memang memiliki sisi
kapitalisme, atau dengan kata lain entrepeneur saling beririsan dengan
kapitalisme dengan tuntutan masyarakatnya yaitu jiwa sosial entrepeneur.
Berkenaan dengan hal tersebut, seorang entrepeneur harus mampu menciptakan
kebaikan untuk mayoritas.

Dalam perjalanan karirnya, dibutuhkan akurasi
atau strategi yang tepat untuk mencapai kesuksesan yang juga dipadukan dengan
pengalaman yang bersifat akumulatif karena semuanya itu merupakan proses
pembelajaran.

Jazz, as many other say, is one of the most complicated music genre. I’ve been studying this music for about nearly four years. I don’t like the first two years of studying this jazz music. All I have to do was just memorizing the chords which are so many, so complicated. After that long term, I stepped to the next level, studying the scales. I thought it would be easier, but what I found was the more difficult exercise. I don’t like it at all! It was tiring to memorize so many kinds of scale and the fingering too.

However, I finally stepped to the improvisation level. It was more difficult than before, but I like it though I was too lazy to do the exercise at home everyday. Now, I’m no more studying only the kinds of improvisation techniques. Now, I’m studying kinds of song in jazz world. It is more interesting than those former lessons.

What I like from jazz music is that it’s easy for anybody not having met before to play in one musical band with one-minded way. Though it is quite complicated to decide whether he or another plays the improvisation first, it is fully enjoyable to play the music. Everybody has their own role in the play. This is what many people usually say about the jazz way, showing the one accord.

Eventhough there’re so many music beside jazz, in my opinion, jazz is the most complicating one. You may see other music’s musician/music player play their instrument more skillful or more complicated than jazz, but playing jazz is not just playing one kind of music because there are so many sub-kinds of music in jazz world and there are more differences between the music than those in other music genres. The kinds of chord are so many in jazz music, more than those used in other music genres.

Want to experience the more complicated music?? Join the jazz world!!

Today, I was supposed to have physics lecture after the calculus lecture and the physical exercise after the environmental knowledge lecture. Fortunately, a bit planned, I didn’t have those two lecture. First, the physics lecturer didn’t come or probably better to be said he couldn’t come so that we all could go home or did other things until the next lecture, that was at 1 p.m. I prayed then that the rain wouldn’t be on the environmental knowledge lecture but rather to be moved to the next lecture so that there would not be physical exercise. Unbelieveably, it happened! At the end of the environmental knowledge lecture the rain started to fall and was continued until I went home.
The one thing I felt sorry was that Dimas, my friend, had been longing for basketball game in the physical exercise hour. Unfortunately my desire was the one fulfilled while his was not. I don’t know why. But, that was truly funny for me because he was terribly disappointed when he knew that ther rain descented in the physical exercise hour. Hahaha….
Actually, I was not that lazy that I prayed to cancel all the lectures today. I was terribly tired today because of yesterday and the day before yesterday. I slept for those 2×24 hours only less than 6 hours. The one I didn’t like was that it was not for along the 6 hours I slept but cut per 2 hours or an hour. So, it was quite relevant for me to be tired today (my whole body). Now, I am starting to do all the tasks to be finished today after all relaxation since 6 p.m.

Numbers

Simple Error Analysis

(Analisis Kesalahan Sederhana)

Untuk pengukuran jumlah atau kuantitas dari suatu hal atau kumpulan benda digunakan bilangan bulat untuk menyatakannya dan hasilnya pun bersifat pasti tanpa kesalahan (error) akibat suatu ketidakpastian. Di lain pihak, untuk pengukuran panjang, lebar, massa, dan lain-lain yang berhubungan dengan adanya ketidakpastian dan kesalahan pengukuran, digunakanlah bilangan riil (real) untuk menyatakannya beserta derajat ketidakpastiannya.

Di setiap pengukuran selalu muncul beberapa perbedaan seperti keakuratan (accuracy) dengan presisi (precision), kesalahan sistematik (systematic errors) dengan kesalahan acak (random errors), dan ketidakpastian (uncertainty) dengan kesalahan (error).

*Keakuratan (accuracy): suatu tingkat di mana nilai yang didapat mendekati nilai yang benar atau bebas dari kesalahan.

*Presisi (precision): suatu tingkat pengukuran yang dapat dilakukan berulang-ulang dan hasilnya akan tetap sama.

*Kesalahan acak (random errors): Kesalahan yang berpusat pada subjektivitas pengamat yang melakukan pengukuran dengan satu cara pengukuran yang sama untuk setiap pengulangan pengukuran.

*Kesalahan sistematik (systematic errors): kesalahan dalam pengukuran yang bersumber pada kesalahan metode pengukuran akibat adanya faktor-faktor eksternal dalam penggunaan alat pengukuran yang tidak diperhatikan atau adanya kesalahan kondisi pengukuran (bukan bersumber pada kesalahan pengamatan oleh manusia/pengamatnya).

*Ketidakpastian (uncertainty): Kondisi yang merupakan hasil dari kesalahan-kesalahan acak dan representasi dari adanyan kekurangan presisi. Ketidakpastian dapat dinyatakan dalam bentuk fraksi (fractional basis) atau persentase ketidakpastian (percentage basis).

*Kesalahan (error): perbedaan antara data yang didapat dan nilai yang sebenarnya. Adapun kesalahan  (error) muncul dari adanyan kesalahan-kesalahan sistematik dan menyatakan kekurangan keakuratan pengukuran (accuracy).

Untuk menyatakan nilai-nilai yang mengandung keakuratan data lebih baik digunakan konsep angkat penting (significant figures) untuk menyatakannya.

Significant Figures (Angka Penting)

Konsep angka penting ini sebenarnya bersumber pada seberapa besar kepercayaan kita akan suatu nilai yang dinyatakan dalam angka-angka. Jika suatu ketidakpastian dari pengukuran batang berkisar 1 bagian dari 1000 maka dibutuhkan tiga angka penting dalam penulisannya seperti 7.58 dengan angka terakhir ditetapkan sebagai data masukan yang mengandung kesalahan (error) dengan digit pertama nilai tersebut dinyatakan sebagai nilai yang pasti. Dalam penulisannya, angka nol (0) di depan angka lainnya tidak diperhitungkan sebagai angka penting melainkan yang di belakang suatu nilai atau angka-angka lainnya yang diperhitungkan sebagai angka penting.

Untuk kondisi dimana terdapat lebih banyak digit angka daripada yang dibutuhkan dalam suatu pelaporan nilai maka dilakukan pembulatan (rounding) dengan batas pembulatan ke atas jika nilai batasnya berkisar antara 5 sampai dengan 9. Akan tetapi, perlu diperhatikan bahwa pembulatan hanya dilakukan pada pelaporan jawaban atau nilai akhir dari suatu proses perhitungan saja, bukan di tengah-tengah perhitungan karena hasilnya pun akan mengandung kesalahan pembulatan jika demikian.

It’s difficult to explain actually, however, I fill like I am entering such a different part of life to be enjoyed nowadays. I was a ‘loneliner’ for a period of my life this far. I realized that the environment surrounding me molded my personality that way. But, that was just a year ago. I had undergone this kind of life for nearly the last twelve years of my life. I thought that was normal and in fact, I enjoyed that kind of life, to be alone wherever I go, doesnt like to be in a crowd with myself involving in the community. I found it difficult to enjoy myself in a community I was not interested in for some reasons, only in a ‘family’ I found it easy to relax myself and enjoy the atmosphere of warmness. But, that was only when I was in a community having been such a family to me. So far it is available only for my music band (5 of us). As a matter of fact, I am the only man there. The others are women, older than me. But, for me they’ve been my second family beside my primary family at home. We understand one another because we have the same sense of music in our mind.

Believe it or not, I’ve changed! Now I feel different. I am no more suitable of being alone for quite a long time. This is for the three-dimentional world for the important point. Actually I still find my family as my family with my perception now about the existence of a real friend. One think I realize changing in me is that my melancholic side is reducing/decreasing while my other sides, such as choleric and sanguine are increasing in much perspective.

Now, the existence of a friend is quite important for me. I have found a friend who in personality is quite the same as me, the one long time ago. I fill ridiculous when I see his perfectionism in dressing himself, in placing anything orderly, in choosing anything to be got, his workacholicsm, his life destiny, etc. It was just like myself before this. It was truly nearly the same as me wholly. Therefore we are easily connected in communicating each other’s ideas. When I tracked back of how we be friends, I think it was quite funny because we only depend on the written communication through our mobile phones. Then it was instantly happened that we are always together wherever we go in the campus (for weekdays). One think I like from him is that he understand me and respect me so much which makes me automatically have to be able to understand him and obviously respect him much more. Understanding each other is the one main point I learn from him this far. Hopefully this friendship will last for a life time for this one is my first time of having a best friend in my life. Though we are totally different in origin and many other life background, we are friends in the essential meaning of the true friendship.

(–I realize myself being melancholic now–)

Today I have a test (UTS in fact) for the running in Saraga. It’s about 2.4 km long in average. But I think that is wrong, not neccesarily acceptable. The time limit was exactly 12 minutes to get A mark. For addition of 1 minute there will be a decrease from B, C, to D finally. Unexpectedly, I got stomachache in the 5th lap. It’s hating! Therefore I walked for about a half lap. I was terribly hurt.

Nevertheless, I tried hard, struggling hard to keep running. I made great effort to manipulate my mind in saying that I was still able to run eventhough my flesh had been demolished (too exagerating..). However, it did work eventhough I walked for quite a distance. I got 12 minutes 20 seconds and it was regarded as B for the mark.

As a matter of fact, I failed to reach my target, but I enjoyed the mark because I got 13.31 for the first time and it was C while now I got 12.20 which was B.

Believe it or not, there is still a remedial test next week for all of us if we want to get higher points. I will force myself to reach the A mark coz I believe that I am capable in that thing. Actually, there was something funny while I was running. I kept sounding my mind with saying that my courage defeated the sun and that the sun is a loser. Apparently, it was a bit funny that there was no sun shining that made us sweating but a strong wind that makes my head hurt, creating headache.

Overall, I like the last test.

Last week I went to Jakarta, as usual. For this Lebaran holiday I stayed in Hotel Menara Peninsula for only 2 nights. It was quite enjoyable because I stayed in the executive club room, the second highest one. It was quite a big room, still not enough for 5 of my family members. The one I like from this club facility was that the dining place for us was differentiated with the regular room that we could eat anytime in the dining time range and the food would be still complete. The place was so quite that we could relax while eating. There was a special cook for us. The service was also very good, so private.

Beside the life in hotel, we went to Plaza Senayan, Senayan City, and Grand Indonesia for shopping too. Becoz Grand Indonesia was still new, there weren’t much opened shop that we hardly find place to buy clothes except for the Seibu. But, in spite of the new term, i like the interior design of that mall. Actually, it was similar to Senayan city wholly. But, Grand Indonesia was more elegant by its glass models and the shape of the mall. Overall, I like that mall.

For the Sunday activity, before I started the shopping activity, I went to GBI Church first in Senayan city at 10 a.m. and it was terribly big (the room). Don’t ask for the facility, it was completely complete!! I wish I had those stuff in my church. The music stuffs were complete, especially for the drum set and the percussion set. However, the players were not as good as the musical instruments. I don’t know how they could play such musical instruments with only that skill? Anyway, I enjoy the preaching.

After that I had lunch with my family and my church’s senior pastor and also with my parents’ friends in Din Tai Fung Restaurant, one of 10 world restaurant. It was in Plaza Senayan. The food was delicious. I ate the lamien, I forgot the name. Then I went to Starbucks and drank hot tripple latte with my mom, the senior pastor, and my sister. We had a little chat there while waiting for our families to come from Mulia Hotel. My father picked them.

Then we entered the Kinokuniya bookstore and looked for some books there. After that, we went home back to the hotel because we had to check out at 4. In fact, we arrived late to the hotel and we asked for prolonged time to prepare first before we left the room until 5 p.m. Then we went out the hotel at precisely 5.30 p.m. We went to Grand Indonesia back then. Apparently, my mom chose that place, not me, because she wanted to buy several books only sold in Kinokuniya in grand Indonesia. There I read several imported magazines. We had dinner then in Bali Jimbaran, after going to and fro, searching for the open one. Dapur Umum in Ancol was not open and also for Pecenongan Restaurant. Bali Jimbaran was the final destination for that searching. There we ate quite a lot and most of the food were delicious, just fare actually.

After those activities, we went home to Bandung at about 9.35 p.m. and arrived to my sweet home at 11 p.m.

Overall, I like this holiday (because I bought new clothes and books quite a lot).